# Drummyfish

*"Next time you're considering [offing yourself](suicide.md), go for it."* --genuine reaction of normal people in [Xonotic](xonotic.md) to drummyfish advocating people should love each other

{ My email is currently: drummyfish AT disroot DOT org. ~drummyfish }

Drummyfish (pronounced *drummy fish*, also known as *tastyfish*, *drummy*, *drumy*, *smellyfish* and *i forcefeed my diarrhea to capitalism*) is a [programmer](programming.md), [anarchopacifist](anpac.md), [heretic](heresy.md), wannabe [generalist](generalism.md), ban [speedrunner](speedrun.md) and proponent of [free software/culture](free_software.md), who started [this wiki](lrs_wiki.md) and invented the kind of [software](software.md) it focuses on: [less retarded software](lrs.md) (LRS), as well as [less retarded society](less_retarded_society.md). Besides others he has written [Anarch](anarch.md), [Licar](licar.md), [small3dlib](small3dlib.md), [raycastlib](raycastlib.md), [smallchesslib](smallchesslib.md), [tinyphysicsengine](tinyphysicsengine.md), [SAF](saf.md) and [comun](comun.md) (and some older but technologically shittier projects such as [LibreMage](libremage.md), [Steamer Duck](steamer_duck.md) etc.). He has also been creating [free culture](free_culture.md) [art](art.md) and otherwise contributing to free software projects such as [OpenMW](openm.md) and just various tidbits here and there (for example he invented and implemented the FISH [pixelart](pixelart.md) upscaling [algorithm](algorithm.md) for the mgba emulator etc.); he buys and digitizes old public domain books and has been contributing with [public domain](pd.md) art of all kind (2D, 3D, music, ...) and writings to [Wikipedia](wikipedia.md) (no longer cause ban), [Wikimedia Commons](wm_commons.md) (also banned now), [opengameart](oga.md), [libregamewiki](lgw.md), freesound and others. Drummyfish is insane/neuroretarded/subnormal, suffering from anxiety/[depression](depression.md)/etcetc. (diagnosed [avoidant personality disorder](avpd.md), also known as minimalist's brain damage, with paranoid-schizoid features; see also [psyops](psyops.md)) and has more than once been called a [schizo](schizo.md), though psychiatrists didn't officially diagnose him with schizophrenia (yet). { UPDATE: now they told me I am "schizoid" cluster A or something, which according to Wikipedia is a "schizophrenia-like personality disorder". ~drummyfish } He sometimes [self harms](self_harm.md), both physically and socially. All in all, psychiatrists say he is insane but in reality he is the only sane man in the world, and that is what he suffers from. Due to spreading uncensored truth, helping and loving others and revealing corruption he is banned and censored on many places on the Internet, including [Wikipedia](wikipedia.md) (literally just linked to personal site from personal page), Wikimedia Commons, [4chan](4chan.md) (made a pedo joke), [GitLab](gitlab.md) (hosted this wiki lol), codeberg (because "?reasons?"), watchpeopledie.tv (made a sarcastic Nazi joke or something), many [subreddits](reddit.md), some [Xonotic](xonotic.md) and [Openarena](openarena.md) servers, ["Rational"Wiki](rationalwiki.md) { well, probably, I just vandalized it and never came back to check lol :D ~drummyfish } etc. He is also being constantly stalked by some pissed off impotent pedophobe (:D), whom he still loves by the way <3, and which drummyfish appreciates as it makes him set many ban [speedrunning](speedrun.md) records and also become more self sufficient and not rely so much on the mainstream, censored platforms. Drummyfish also has no [real life](irl.md) and is pretty retarded when it comes to leading [projects](project.md) or otherwise dealing with people or [practical life](irl.md). Drummyfish's political compass is off the charts, he once tried to take the political compass test, the computer got confused and exploded. He is also a [wizard](wizard.md).

In addition to basically being a giant walking disorder, **drummyfish is also the most physically disgusting bastard on [Earth](earth.md)**, no [woman](woman.md) ever loved him, he is so ugly people get [suicidal](suicide.md) thoughts from seeing any part of him. He is also very stupid. Drummyfish also **smells like nightmare**, even after he showers, he was independently told so by many different people, he can't even exist in society, his smell kills everything in 1km radius. When he was younger, though, he looked a little more handsome and may even have received a handjob and blowjob from a 16 year old (LEGALLY, age of consent in his country is 15). Still no real sex tho.

{ I've been told I'm just a fakecel whoring for attention here -- let me say I'm not faking it and I don't desire attention, attention scares me, but I feel the need to say I am repulsive -- yes, I really make women run away from me and I don't know why, on rare occasions I had some very close, almost 100% certain chances to score but it never happened, something is seriously wrong with me and my curse is that I don't know what it is so I can't even try to fix it, so trust me I'm telling the truth. Maybe it's not apparent from my photos that I'm ugly (I think when I was younger I actually looked quite OK, but everyone looks fine at a young age), maybe it's my smell, way of talking, I don't know, but they certainly hate me. ~drummyfish }

He loves all living beings, even those whose attributes he hates or who hate him. Drummyfish loves even bugs, he saves them when they're drowning and tries a lot to not even hurt spiders, flies, ants and so on, and is sad even when he has to kill a plant, so he avoids for example mowing grass. He is a [vegetarian](vegetarianism.md) (since about 2018) and here and there supports good causes, for example he donates hair and gives money to homeless people who ask for them and sometimes cleans the [Earth](earth.md) from plastic garbage (something he learned when he slaved as a factory cleaner). He also adopts and takes care of sick animals from the streets. He also tried to donate blood but couldn't because he's taking antidepressants.

Drummyfish has a personal website at [www.tastyfish.cz](https://www.tastyfish.cz), and a gopherhole at [self.tastyfish.cz](gopher://self.tastyfish.cz). He uses [vim](vim.md), doesn't have any favorite distro and will NEVER HAVE ONE (in fact he hates [Linux](linux.md) and would use another kernel if it was possible).

Photos of drummyfish: [young](https://cloud.disroot.org/apps/files_sharing/publicpreview/4E36WS5ZN42pasg?file=/me/156%20-%20sQNYr3g.png&fileId=122364667&x=1280&y=800&a=true), [older](https://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/2/26/Drummyfish_profile_photo.png) (after being confronted with real life) and [naked](https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Drummyfish_naked_all_sides_beard.png).

Drummyfish experiences a lot of discrimination but still doesn't hate his discriminators. As a straight white male in [21st century](21st_century.md) drummyfish is a victim of regular discrimination and racism in form of social revenge for historical events he has nothing to do with. Drummyfish is not covid vaccinated -- for this he was sorted into the second class of citizens during the covid pandemic and experienced another form of discrimination, e.g. what today would be called a "verbal abuse", segregation and so on. He never had covid. As a [Slav](slav.md) he comes from an ancestry of slaves, so in [America](usa.md) he would be called a [hero](hero_culture.md). Drummyfish was baptized and is NOT circumcised. He has [hallux varus](body_shaming.md) (foot toes oddly spaced from the rest of the fingers) -- this makes him be able to grab things with his feet and climb trees well, like a monkey.

Drummyfish's real name is Miloslav (NOT Miroslav) Číž, he was born in the blessed year [1990](1990.md) (Chinese year of the Horse), on 24th of August ([Virgo](wizard.md)), and lives in Moravia, [Czech Republic](czechia.md), [Earth](earth.md) (he rejects the concept of a country/[nationalism](nationalism.md), the info here serves purely to specify a location). He spent his childhood happily in times when [memes](meme.md) didn't exist yet, when households didn't normally have computers, yet alone [Internet](internet.md), and people didn't even own cell phones, when TV with three channels in total was the peak of technology. Drummyfish's family got their first computer in 1997, with [Windows](windows.md) 3.1, of course, without any access to the [Internet](internet.md), just plain old horizontal-case PC with CRT, ball [mouse](mouse.md) and a floppy drive. At that time he became fascinated with [games](game.md) such as [Wolf3D](wold3d.md) and Duke Nukem 2 -- that's when he decided he wanted to one day be making his own [games](game.md). He became deeply fascinated with computers, cell phones and video games and asked himself "How are video games made? How is it possible to program ANYTHING?". He thought about this before sleep and even came up with an idea of [flowcharts](flowchart.md), a visual language with which it would be possible to "program anything". Even though his family didn't have too much money, he cried and cried all days until he achieved a [Gameboy](gameboy.md) Color, and later on even Gameboy Advance! He was extremely happy about it and played [Pokemon](pokemon.md) (Yellow, Crystal and Emerald) all day and night, however many years later he would realize the Gameboys were nowehere to be found and therefore lost -- what a disaster! As the family PC got upgraded, he was able to start playing the newest hits and came to love especially [Warcraft III](warcraft3.md) (played as Orc), [Trackmania](trackmania.md), [Quake 3](quake3.md), The Elder Scrolls (Morrowind, Oblivion, Skyrim) and much later also [World of Warcraft](wow.md) (since vanilla, quit during WotLK, played tauren warrior named *Drummy* on server *Agamaggan* { If you are one of my old WoW friends, please, I beg you, let me know, I would love to talk to you. ~drummyfish }). His family acquired permanent Internet connection at home in 2006, as drummyfish was leaving elementary school.

{ Why doxx myself? Following the [LRS](lrs.md) philosophy, I believe information should be free. [Censorship](censorship.md) -- even in the name of [privacy](privacy.md) -- goes against information freedom. We should live in a society in which people are moral and don't abuse others by any means, including via availability of their private information. And in order to achieve ideal society we have to actually live it, i.e. slowly start to behave as if it was already in place. Of course, I can't tell you literally everything (such as my passwords etc.), but the more I can tell you, the closer we are to the ideal society. ~drummyfish }

He likes many things such as animals, peace, [freedom](freedom.md), [programming](programming.md), [math](math.md) and [games](game.md). Drummyfish used to be a """pro""" at [Xonotic](xonotic.md) and [OpenArena](openarena.md), had dedicated years to the them (even though he despises [competitive](competition.md) behavior [in real life](irl.md)) but he quit the games after Xonotic developers fucked the game up at which point he also realized the games kind of enslaved him -- he misses the games and some of the players a little bit but has in general been a bit happier not playing them. He plays piano and drums a little bit and tries to pick up new things like [chess](chess.md), [go](go.md), crocheting or [language](human_language.md) learning (he speaks [Czech](czech.md)/Slovak natively, [English](english.md), a bit of [Spanish](spanish.md) and a few animal languages, mainly [cat](cat.md), [dog](dog.md) and a little bit of chicken). He has [no sense of smell](anosmia.md) (since birth). He is around 175 cm tall, right handed and has blood type AB. According to the psychology astrology he is [INTJ](intj.md), and also has mild [synesthesia](synesthesia.md) (mainly [numbers](number.md) to [colors](color.md)). He got [IQ](iq.md) measured quite high by Mensa but he think it's basically [bullshit](bullshit.md), he's pretty slow at mental calculations and quite retarded at many things. For [fun](fun.md) drummyfish likes to stalk (online) and triangulate various people, from video clues he was able to track down for example [Luke Smith](luke_smith.md) and Chessbrah house. As a kid he used to draw a comic called *Ted The Supercrow* (now scanned, translated and released under [CC0](cc0.md)).

Before becoming a kind of schizo, he used to be relatively normal, even had a girlfriend for a while -- for a long time he was a [proprietary](proprietary.md) [Windows](windows.md) normie, using [Facebook](facebook.md) and playing mainstream video games. In the university he started using [GNU](gnu.md)/[Linux](linux.md) because it was convenient for the school work, but still mostly used Windows. Only near the end of his studies he became more interested in [FOSS](foss.md), after reading [Richard Stallman](rms.md)'s biography. At the beginning he promoted "[open source](open_source.md)" and used [soynet](soynet.md) platforms such as [Fediverse](fediverse.md), later on he found the [suckless](suckless.md) website and was enlightened by [minimalism](minimalism.md); he also started to see through the evils of [open $ource](open_source.md), [capitalism](capitalism.md) and other things and refused to conform, which led him to the path of becoming the aforementioned schizo.

In 2012 drummyfish fell into deep [depression](depression.md) and became convinced he was going blind, he became desperate and cried all the time, additionally ending up with a sort of hardcore burnout and extreme exhaustion, headaches etc., he had to postpone his studies and take a year off -- since then his psychological issues began to worsen, it took around two years just to somewhat recover, however a similarly devastating breakdown came again in 2015 after a failed attempt at discontinuing antidepressants, again requiring a year off for recovery. Since then he would start suffering regular depressive episodes and constant worsening anxiety, eventually resulting in [loss of all real life friends](friend_detox.md) and a level of isolation just shy of [Hikikomori](hikikomori.md). In 2019 drummyfish has written a "manifesto" called **Non-Competitive Society** that describes the concepts and politics (or rather lack thereof) of his ideal society. It is in the [public domain](public_domain.md) under [CC0](cc0.md) and available for download online and was translated to more than zero languages. Around 2020 he spent a few months in a mental institute, where he was working on his game [Anarch](anarch.md), which he got to release at the end of the year. Since leaving the hospital he was forced to do various slaveries such as newspaper and [spam](spam.md) distribution (on a bicycle), janitor/cleaner, night guard in a factory etc. In 2023 drummyfish said "fuck it" and published his nudes on the Internet (under [CC0](cc0.md)); around the same time he also bought a tiny caravan inawoods and plans to live there, away from society. Also in 2023 he lost 30 kg thanks to a combination of diet and depression. He is the only man on [Earth](earth.md) who hates the country in which he happened to come out of vagina. He is a more or less straight [male](man.md) of the [white](white.md) [race](race.md). He started programming at high school in [Pascal](pascal.md), then he went on to study [compsci](compsci.md) (later focused on [computer graphics](graphics.md)) in a Brno University of Technology and got a [master's degree](msc.md) in 2017, however he subsequently refused to find a job in the industry, partly because of his views (manifested by [LRS](lrs.md)) and partly because of mental health issues. He rather chose to stay closer to the working class and do less harmful [slavery](job.md) such as cleaning and physical [spam](spam.md) distribution, and continues [hacking](hacking.md) on his programming (and other) projects in his spare time in order to be able to do it with absolute freedom.

**Drummyfish is from the alternative, good far [future](future.md)** (one that won't happen but would happen if [LRS](lrs.md) was realized), he comes from a society several thousand to possibly millions years ahead -- if you want to talk to a man from the future, talk to drummyfish. How is it possible? Imagine you traveled back to cavemen times, times when no one knew the wheel and couldn't count beyond 10, when it was normal for people to perform ritual sacrifices of human and so on -- imagine yourself at this time, telling people "you don't have to sacrifice this guy, it's no good" or "you can use wheel to transfer these stones to save 90% of your current effort" and the cavemen being like "[LMAO](lmao.md) you schizo, that will never work, humans have to be sacrificed, society can't work without it, stop your utopia bullshit" and "LMAO wheel? What's that schizo shit? It won't work, we don't even have to try. Our top [shamanism](soyence.md) popularizator says it's BS so we believe him. Numbers beyond 10? You mean infinity? You have some demons in you, take your potions." You would literally be a man from the future in the past, and that is what drummyfish is nowadays. Drummyfish says things like "stop [competition](competition.md)", "stop nationalism", "stop bullshit like political correctness", "adopt true [minimalism](minimalism.md)", and people are like "LMAO stop that utopia bullshit [pedo](pedophilia.md), competition is necessary for human organism to physically function because Neil de grass told me that on TV, take your schizo potions, minimalism will never work because it's nonintuitive and it isn't good for the economy gods". It is idiosyncratic of drummyfish to adopt ideas hated both by both major political camps of today: the [right](left_vs_right.md) and [pseudoleft](pseudoleft.md).

**Does drummyfish have [divine intellect](terry_davis.md)?** Hell no, he's pretty retarded at most things and would be a complete failure wasn't it for some of his special features -- thanks to his extraordinary tendency for isolation, grand curiosity and obsession with [truth](truth.md) he is possibly the only man on [Earth](earth.md) completely immune to propaganda, he can see the world as it is, not as it is presented, so he feels it is his moral duty to share what he is seeing. He is able to overcome his natural dumbness by tryharding and sacrificing his social and sexual life so that he can program more. If drummyfish can learn to program [LRS](lrs.md), so can you.

**What is drummyfish's fucking problem?** The biggest burden for drummyfish -- the one that he has always struggled with (even if he realized this very late in his life) and which will be with him until death -- is that he is simply extremely, extremely alone. NO, not "alone" in the [incel](incel.md) sense, and not alone in the "[geeky](geek.md)" way, not alone as in being introverted and shy or hated (even if that he is), missing sex or company or attention or compassion, not at all. He has been struggling his whole life to find a HUMAN, a true human being like himself -- of perhaps we should rather say human subspecies of which drummyfish is and always will be the only member. He feels much closer to animals than to people. On the Internet he found a considerable number of "followers" through [LRS](lrs.md) (many of them working at CIA), the expression of his life philosophy, but he never really met a being of the same human subspecies as he is himself. He is alien in a sense -- people exist around him, even what would be called "friends", supporters, "fans", but he has never met a single true human being of the same kind as himself, someone to find absolute mutual understanding with and someone to have a true admiration for. { The closest is probably my mom, only her I ever really admired and felt the closest bond with. I think no one else ever came closer to understanding me and loving me like that. This is probably nothing surprising though. ~drummyfish } A feeling perhaps similar to what the last member of a species that is dying out must feel, except that he doesn't even have any ancestors to think of, it is a feeling of being absolutely alone in the whole Universe, the whole timespace. Hell, he is so lonely he created a whole virtual world, lore, ideology and Internet community with huge ass [wiki](lrs_wiki.md) where he is still the only participant and where he basically just keeps talking to himself. { Also please don't try to fix me or comfort me by saying nice things like "I was like this too, you will find someone", it just pisses me off, you don't know what's going on. I know your intentions are good but don't do it cause it's no use. ~drummyfish } But the feeling of loneliness is only part of the whole tragedy -- it would even be bearable, however the worst part is that drummyfish LOOKS LIKE a normal human so others treat him so, they try to apply things that normally work on people on drummyfish, like talking to him or thanking him or keeping him in company of other people because apparently "humans are social animals" or whatever, and it's just fucking killing him. It's as if you try to treat literal fish like a human, trying to keep it out of water because humans dislike breathing water, trying to feed it human food, put it in human clothes -- you're just going to torture the animal to death.

**Is drummyfish arrogant and [egocentric](egoism.md)?** Maybe yes, he was not once told so, and he admits he is prone to being a shitty being, a disgrace to what he preaches -- yes, he sees it, regrets it and suffers from it, and it's no excuse for behaving so -- he is a bad, bad, faulty and shitty being. He is also a huge cocksucker that chases away any potential friend he could make, that's just a trait of his broken personality. Humans are weak, shitty and inevitably have evil in them, sometimes too big to overcome completely, some days you are good, other days you're too tired and the evil shows. We all carry the heavy burden of self interest, greed and egocentrism cast upon us by evolution, it's imprinted in our brains, sometimes it's too strong to not let it show. Please remember LRS argues to not glorify anyone -- partly for said reasons -- and by that drummyfish never wishes to be praised or glorified, he only wishes for you to take the ideas he offers, think about them and take the good you find. Drummyfish tries to be good but inevitably he won't always succeed -- follow ideas, not people.

Drummyfish is also the biggest expert on sexuality of all times and he says this: sexual orientations aren't real, everyone will fuck everything as long as the [cultural](culture.md) pressure isn't stronger than the specific sexual desire. QED, [gender studies](gender_studies.md) can stop existing now.

Drummyfish will probably [kill himself](suicide.md) one day -- likely not that soon (who knows), but it's planned, after all there is nothing worse than living under [capitalism](capitalism.md), death sounds like such a relief. There are still some [projects](needed.md) he wants to finish first; unless something triggers him and he just randomly jumps under a train one day or gets nuked by Putin, he is planning to finish some of the projects to leave something behind. The current plan is to try to live somehow, outside or on the edge of society, minimize contact with people, do good and avoid evil as much as possible. Once closest relatives are gone, then with no more ties to the current [shitty place](czechia.md), he will walk on foot towards the Mediterranean sea, a place that has always attracted him more than anywhere else, and there he will simply die either of illness, injury or hunger, or he will simply swim for the sunset and never return. That's a death one can even look forward to. There, at his beloved sea, drummyfish will meet his fate and find his final resting place and the peace he so much desired and struggled for through his whole life. Hopefully his body will feed a few hungry fish.

## Doxx, Cringe, "Sensitive" Info And Other Fun Stuff

What follows is an info about Drummyfish that might be called """sensitive""":

- **name**: Miloslav Číž
- **birth**: 24.08.1990, 11:30 AM, in Zlin ([Czechia](czechia.md)), 2.95 kg, 49 cm, first child
- **species**: homo sapiens
- **[race](race.md)**: white, slav
- **sex AKA gender**: male
- **height**: 175 cm
- **weight**: 57 kg at the time of writing (last 10 years min. and max.: 54 kg, 87 kg)
- **eye color**: people say blue, he thinks it's green
- **hair color**: dark
- **handedness**: right (both hand and foot)
- **blood type**: AB
- **education and shit**: elementary school T. G. Masaryka in Maratice (1st and 2nd grade), elementary school ZS Babice (until 2006), high school SPS Zlin: technicke lyceum (graduation in 2010), bachelor's degree from Faculty of Information Technology at Brno University of Technology ([computer science](computer_science.md), graduation in 2014), master's degree from the same ([computer graphics](graphics.md) and multimedia, graduation in 2017), driver's license (forgot how to drive already)
- **Mayer-Briggs**: [INTJ](intj.md)
- **orientation/fetishes**: basically straight but perverted and not afraid of anything, will jerk off to anyone and anything (including necro, zoo, gore, incest, scat, anorexic, fat, [gay](gay.md), [tranny](transsexual.md), lesbian, ...), however sexual drive is quite low and masturbation is just a routine, curiously he LACKS fetishes that are "too common and mainstream" such as [BDSM](bdsm.md), nipple twisting, feet, [furry](furry.md) shit, hentai, 3D, [deepfakes](deepfake.md) and so on (it looks like forbidden fruit is what turns him on)
- **preferred girl type**: Very pale, longer darker hair (ginger would pass too), [anorexic](anorexia.md) to normal weight, shorter to normal height, flat to normal sized tits, small ass, NO muscle, shy, mustn't have any [tattoos](tattoo.md) or piercing.
- **penis length** (flaccid, erect): 9.5 cm, 16 cm
- **masturbation frequency**: now around once in 2-3 days (in horny periods can go up to twice a day, in depression may completely stop)
- **date of virginity loss**: no (but got handjob and blowjob)
- **[IQ](iq.md)** (SD 15): bullshit ranging anywhere from 120 to 151, at Mensa he got 148 but he trained for it a bit before because it was at the time when he was very insecure about his IQ, in paper and online self tests normally somewhere around 130, at current time probably half of that as Internet killed all the brain cells. { On weekends subtract 20 because I now drink wine on weekends and it deletes my brain (I don't drink that much but with the pills I'm taking it has this sorta effect). ~drummyfish }
- **[DNA](dna.md) stuff**: maternal haplogroup HV (HVR1 mutations: 16093C, 16129A, 16221T, 16519C), paternal haplogroup E1b1b { No idea what this stuff means, if anyone can explain I'll appreciate. ~drummyfish }
- **other**: vegetarian, anosmia (no sense of smell), hallux varus (foot toe too far apart from other fingers), nasal adenoids removed in childhood, from age of 20 anxiety and depression (taking antidepressants, [AvPD](avpd.md)), in 2006 broken instep of right foot, NOT Covid vaccinated, weird issues with sight (doctors say it's "psychosomatic" but he thinks he has some shit in his brain, it's something related to so called "visual snow"), wore dental braces, wisdom teeth NOT removed (fuck dentists), has migraines with aura but usually without headaches
- **favorites** (as of writing of course):
  - **[color](color.md)**: depends, but a general answer has always been yellow (lighter, less saturated)
  - **[number](number.md)**: hard to say, maybe 12 { Generally highly divisible numbers like 6, 12 and 24 feel appealing to me, they have warm colors in my mind, a mix of orange, brown and green, and I feel they are useful and universal for measurements by being dividable into many different ways. ~drummyfish }
  - **shape**: no favorite shape yet, he has to think about it
  - **band**: Linkin Park (until like [2010](2010.md))
  - **[distro](distro.md)**: NO, all suck
  - **[text editor](text_editor.md)**: uses and prefers [vim](vim.md), but not religiously
  - **[programming language](programming_language.md)**: [Forth](forth.md) he finds most beautiful, [C](c.md) he uses the most
  - **video games**: now rejecting [proprietary](proprietary.md) games, but used to enjoy e.g. Warcraft III, [WoW](wow.md), [Trackmania](trackmania.md), Elder Scrolls, [Quake](quake.md) III, [Xonotic](xonotic.md), [OpenArena](openarena.md) and [Pokemon](pokemon.md), now also [chess](chess.md)
  - **[paradigm](paradigm.md)**: [imperative](imperative.md) of course
  - **movies**: among the top are Les Visiteurs and Pulp Fiction
  - **[algorithm](algorithm.md)**: probably [Hough transform](hough_transform.md)
  - **climate**: hot, sea, sand and rocks
  - **food**: no favorite really, prefers salty probably, pizza and french fries are always cool
  - **drink**: water, coffee (no sugar, no milk), sometimes wine
  - **[books](books.md)**: many, but all time favorite might be *Carpet Makers* by *Andreas Eschbach*, also many other books by him (for example *Jesus Video*)
  - **animal**: loves all animals, but chicken might be at the top now
  - **[Pokemon](pokemon.md)**: probably Alakazam, other favorites are Gengar, Mewtwo, Lugia and many others
  - **painting**: not much into it but would say *The Wave* by *William-Adolphe Bouguereau*
- ...

Do you at times (or always) feel like a total loser dipshit? Also maybe trying to [conceal your identity](privacy.md) in order to erase the cringes of your dark past? No need to worry, no one is spared of stupid fuck up moments, especially at younger years. To alleviate your fears of someone finding out, here are some **embarrassing moments** from drummyfish's life to brighten up your day:

- In high school physical education he wore the same, sweat soaked clothes for a WHOLE YEAR without washing them. No, that's not a [joke](jokes.md), it just happened because firstly he doesn't have the sense of smell and secondly he just didn't care much, he didn't give it much thought. It was only after a few months had passed when he realized his classmates started to maintain a minimum 10 meter distance and then someone told him straight away that he smelled like a pile of garbage.
- When he was very young (around 1st grade), he and his friend decided to show penises to each other. Drummyfish was surprised that the friend's foreskin could move so easily as at the time his own foreskin was somehow "stuck" (apparently it happens to children). They didn't touch each other's penises by the way or do anything "sexual", it was pure child curiosity. But drummyfish did have sexual desires from very young age, even homosexual, incestual and zoophilic ones, which is completely normal (try to deny imagining scenarios). He started to masturbate at the age 11. { It might even have been sooner, memory fails me, but it probably wasn't later because I vividly remember masturbating to the chick from Star Wars: Episode II which just came out, and that was when I was 11. ~drummyfish }
- At a young age he once returned from a camping school trip with his ballsack full of ticks, his father had to remove them, it was very awkward.
- He was kicked out of a cell phone store because he played with a test phone for too long (it was probably Nokia 6600, played the [Lord of the Rings](lotr.md) Gandalf game). This happened during his period of obsession with the [Nokia](nokia.md) [Symbian](symbian.md) phones which, of course, he couldn't afford, and thus was left with the only option of playing with the phones at the store. The event wasn't so bad but it traumatized him a little.
- When he was young he missed an "out of order" sign on a public toilet urinal and peed into it, the toilet guy yelled at him and kicked him out :'D Ouch.
- Drummyfish's class was once taken outside because the weather was real nice, and as they went by the brook and a small bridge over it, drummyfish decided to look cool -- instead of walking over the bridge he climbed over the bottom of the bridge. The teacher was very pissed and order the class to get back in the school for this. Everyone was very pissed at drummyfish.
- Once he got scammed at the bus station, without hesitation he signed a random paper someone handed to him because he cannot say no [in real life](irl.md). He also lost a very significant amount of money for the same reason, he got asked for a loan (several times), never saw the money again.
- Once in a lifetime he actually found the courage to strike up a conversation with a total stranger when he spotted a dirty old [homeless](homelessness.md) man standing on a corner, he approached the man and asked if he wanted some [money](money.md), turned out the guy wasn't homeless [LMAO](lmao.md) :'D It was just a dirty old man. OH FUCK I still cringe at this.
- With [girls](woman.md) he was always so fucking awkward you wouldn't believe -- there was a chick (huge bitch but very pretty) in high school he hopelessly fell in love with and whom he stalked [in real life](irl.md), he found her address in yellow pages and used to bike to her village, hoping to meet her, but he would be too scared to talk to her. In school he once got to talk to her and it was the most excruciatingly painful "conversation" you can imagine, he was VISIBLY shaking and sweating and not being able to form a sentence, the girl couldn't even hide her laughter after a while. And maybe worst of all, the girl's friend, a bit uglier but still cute and lovely, absolutely started to hit on drummyfish, she told him she needed "someone to teach her how to kiss", and drummyfish was like "sorry I'm playing Quake now, see you later".
- When he "[worked](work.md)" at a reception in a factory he once answered the phone and there was a guy on the other end asking something. Drummyfish didn't understand, so he asked if he could please repeat it, but then he didn't understand either and this sadly repeated a few times until the guy finally said "Are you fucking kidding me?! Nevermind, I'll call someone else." and hanged up. This was fucking devastating, since this event drummyfish got a panic phobia of answering the phone, he always had to have someone else around who would do it.
- Classic child fail: when drummyfish was little he tried show off on a bicycle before his younger brother and was like "Hey look, I can ride no hands.", then he crashed and smashed his face to a garbage bin. He held the tears back so hard, it was the peak of embarrassment at that time, and to fix this they then went back home and he told his brother: "Hey, want to a secret? It didn't actually hurt, I know a secret to so that it doesn't hurt, I crashed intentionally to test it."
- Drummyfish used to be the worst kind of normie [NPC](npc.md) for a very long time, late into his 20s, using [Facebook](facebook.md), [Windows](windows.md), [reddit](reddit.md) and [Fediverse](fediverse.md), watching TBBT and partaking in such shit as "icebucket challenge" and whatnot. He used to fall for the worst memes like reddit [atheism](atheism.md) and used to be a self centered prick, thinking he was literally [Einstein](einstein.md) level genius for being able to program in [Pascal](pascal.md). This is unforgivable.
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## See Also

- [people](people.md)
- [autism](autism.md)
- [schizo](schizo.md)
- [based](based.md)
- [loser](loser.md)
- [retard](retard.md)
- [chad](chad.md)
- [lolcow](lolcow.md)
- [Terry Davis](terry_davis.md)